To say you meant the world to me buddy is an understatement. Tonight I am in utter disbelief that you are gone.  I love and now miss terribly, everything about you...your hair, your big blue eyes and your huge smile, your little space between your teeth, your red birth mark on your leg, your laugh..oh, your laugh..it was so high pitched and when you got really excited, you cackled and made everyone around you laugh out loud.  You loved Colin so much. Even though you learned how to say "brother," you stuck with "duhduh."  You loved to ask for "yotion" on your hands at night and you always said "morning mommy" or "morning daddy" as you popped up in your crib each morning.  You loved your life, you were always so happy. You loved fireman Sam and couldn't wait for daddy to get home to play "bagutball."  You were a true athlete already..so sure footed, so steady and coordinated.  Daddy said you had perfect form already on your basketball shot.  You loved "your people" and listed them off sometimes just for fun.  My heart aches for every part of you.  Today I am living for your brother, Colin who is the other half of my heart and I know someday, we will all be together again.